Leilalicks’s Weblog

Caution! It’s gonna be very personal now. It seems that my whole life has changed. Or not my life, but me. It feels as if my old me has died and a new me has been born.

Around one month ago, I met a really special person. I defenitely met my soulmate! We came along so well, we understood each other from the first second on, just like no one has ever understood me. All the talks and discussions we had really helped me to understand even myself, who I am. And it helped me to leave my past behind, all the fears I had and start into a new and really crazy life. I mean, who the f** sets the rules? It’s every single person on it’s own. So why don’t I? … I do now…

I’m getting very impatient. Last week’s singing lesson was very intensive but I just want more. I know that my voice needs time to grow but I’ve come so far now, it’s so strong that I can hardly keep me back from giving full power. I know it’s dangerous. But I want more – I want it all and I want it now…

I feel very guilty for neglecting this blog for so long. But I used the rare freetime I have at the moment to think about the future, to write songs, to plan the next year. I’m working on a concept. This first of all always sounds cool and secondly helps me to focus on my plans. I think if I can get my thoughts to paper, it will help me to turn it into reality. I think, I’m at the moment right now to start, very close to really push this thing into life and let it roll. So it’s always good to have a plan. More of me sooner than last time

As long as mankind exists, I persume everyone has dreams. So do I. Recently, when I took a walk on the sun side of Zurich (means, where the really rich ones have their houses), I created a new one. Dream, I mean. I saw these wonderful, meaningful, mysterious houses, almost castles and I realised: I want to have one as well. Not a common one. I want a castle created by H.R. Giger!!! I really adore his work – I especially love how he works with this shocking effect, this kinky kind of humanity in machines, or should I say machinity in humans? It might sound strange if I wish to have a castle and all interiors built by him, but I don’t imagine it as a dark and wicked place, more kind of a huge inlightened home with space to life the dark side of your soul and fantasy…

There are weeks, when everything comes together. Weeks, when you think: what the hell?! I just survived such a week. After a very busy weekend without any recreation time, I started the week very early: at 5am! All I wanted on Monday evening was to go to bed. But it seems that I did not want it that much as I found myself sitting in the cinema at 9pm. And the whole week just went on like that and I don’t see any end, as I have a meeting tomorrow at 7:30 to go to the nailstylist. How crazy must I have been to make such an appointment!

It’s been a year now that I write this blog, more or less regularly. I was very enthusiastic about it in the beginning. But it’s not always easy to find some new content, something new to tell. Sometimes I feel like I’m running in circles…

Maybe you noticed that I changed a lot during this year. I have changed from partyqueen to a more serious woman, focusing on music instead of men. It feels like I grew up. I had several problems with this development, as I always thought that a rock ‘n roll chick has to be a party lion. I just found out that it doesn’t have to exclude one another – it’s more like a natural balance; I am serious and can live the wild and dark side of me in music. It just makes a lot of sense right now. I hope, you’re gonna like the new Leila

There are still gentlemen in this world!!! I couldn’t belive it. It all started on last Saturday. My best friend and I have planned to work at a bar at the Hunter-Airshow in St. Stephan. After a great day of beautiful planes, we opened up the bar. Of course, we were well prepared – we both had the same skirt and the same shoes! We did not have many guests but all of a sudden, this nice gentleman appeared. He was unbeliveably charming! He even realised that we wore the same shoes! What a man! There was only one little problem about him: he was twelve

You might have asked yourself, why this blog has not been updated for so long. It’s very simple: I was practising. No, not with music or singing this time, but with motorbiking. I was a little bit under pressure, as my learning license was going to expire soon and if you don’t have the exam before, you have to redo all the courses. So I sat on the motorbike every evening to get these turns in my head. and you wouldn’t belive it (even I don’t!): I passed! Yeeeeess! I’m a real motorbike chick now

Hu, I discovered internet-shopping! It’s very dangerous… Have you ever heard of rockbands? I read of it somewhere in a magazine and I had to check it out. And there were so many beautiful wristbands. I just had to buy one

And do you know Ed Hardy by Christian Audigier? OMG! His collection is gorgeous! I love these paintings and especially the shirts with glitter stones on them. I could buy almost everything!

yeah! I’ve got an overflow of positive energy these times! I just wrote the next number one smash-hit! sure! you see, I’ve got somehow a megalomania I see myself filling the biggest stadiums

more yeah! It’s sale in Zurich’s shops and this is daaaaangerous for my acount. I have just been to the city and I found a nice new party-outfit, golden hotpants, asian shirt in blue-green and a sexy jacket in white. Will look gorgeous I just need to go partying now – you’ll see me